"I know that it's easier to portray a world that's filled with cynicism and anger, where problems are resolved with violence. That's titillating. It's an easy out. What's a whole lot tougher is to offer alternatives, to present other ways conflicts can be resolved, and to show that you can have a positive impact on your world. To do that, you have to put yourself out in a limb, take chances, and run the risk of being called a do-gooder.
-Jim Henson
Do you ever feel like you've lost yourself? Of course you have, you're human.
I feel like that. Not entirely in a negative way. I feel like I make a lot of good, significant choices. But, there's always a but, I don't know if I'm being the person I set out to be. I'm really easily impacted by negative energy and guilt. It affects me, a lot. I don't always open up, and this semester has really impacted me and drew me to a lot of conclusions. I've been very forgetful this semester, in everyday life and in the grand scheme of things. I've been really, unnecessarily nervous this semester. More anxious I guess. Vair vair unhealthy.
I want to stop going through the motions. Deal with things as they come, no more ignoring the people who need to be talked to. As Jim Henson said, "Dynamite determination." That's what I need. Need. Not Want.
I really WANT to go be an intern at the Jim Henson company in New York. I wonder if GC would sponsor me. Christmas break, come up with a plan. On your mark, get set, ...
Pretty much everything about this post makes me happy to read. Especially the quote at the beginning.
ReplyDeleteI think you'd be a perfect candidate to intern there from what little I know of it